Its insane what I am about to say
I do not know how to control my substances. I am compared to evil counterparts and I do not know how to feel. Truthfully there is nothing different in how I felt a year ago to how I feel now, but its a deeply personal task. I am a fuck up there's no doubt about that. But the matter I conduct myself is something to be looked at. I am an alcoholic there is no doubt. I conduct myslef in a way that leads to deteriorating views from not only the lwoman I love but the feelings the other People It is In A Relationship with feel. I am a black mark on his record. I am not good for it yet why does it find me interesting or compassionate. I should be killed for how I am and act. Lils rammy casey and marika give them such a better response point than my innafectuite existate. I am sorry babe for bring these issues to light please kill me if you wish. I am sorry. Sorry. I am not worth it. Everyone else is.