Wings, Fries and a brownie at 1am
There is a lot of behaviors i have that I don't quite understand. Like my need to isolate and run when things get tough. Then there are things that I do understand, like my addictions. I grew up with one parent who did not express emotions unless it was an extreme under the strain of diabetic attacks and and another who is an unwitting workaholic, willing alcoholic and nic fiend. I saw my mom come home, nap for 4 hours then drink as she made dinner and the rest of the day after 4pm. I got the best combination of time, age, and length of struggle that frankly I dont know how to cope anymore. I ordered wingstop after ordering popeyes earlier. Project section Trying to write a song. always been singing random stuff i made up in my head in like the show and when im alone but. I think i will try and document it here. idk if it will become an actual song ever but i need to get this stuff out so its real.
Head Hurts waking up ducking under all my aches and responsibilities same cycle every day, I wonder if anything can change